I not only loved my husband but admired him as well. To say he was not smooth with words would be an understatement. I smile as I write this. Those who knew him quickly realized he was a straight shooter. However, he was gifted in his field of work and had such strong determination. He loved me and he loved our children. He accepted his illness. Our family life took on a “new” normal, one that included doctors, hospitals and medicines. I saw discouragement from time to time but I never saw him give up during the years he battled his illness. I want to be like him as I battle mine.